Season to be jolly? That's a lot of pressure for someone who is depressed.
Tis the season to be jolly? Even if you don't deal with depression you can find it hard to be happy just because it is Christmas.
I remember the first Christmas after my dad died suddenly at the age of 59. Christmas came three months later. I knew Christmas was going to be tough. I even wondered if there was some way to avoid it all together. A friend said 'sure you could avoid it this year but then next year you will still have to have your first Christmas without your dad. You may as well get it over with.'